It's funny how you can not miss something you remember missing so badly. Someone. Though the missing is gone, the care is still there. I think I will always care for this person. But they don't want me to be a part of their life. That is their decision and I can finally respect it. Now that I'm away from the situation, I see how selfish I really was.

I'm in such a better place right now. I feel a lot closer to so many of my friends and I'm making more each day. I do not plan to let it end here, though. I plan to grow closer and closer to as many people as I can each day. I've learned to stay close to those who want me in their lives.

The ITS Convention had a lot to do with this realization. I was surrounded by people everyday that loved me and that I loved. People that made me smile and especially laugh. I started wondering why in the past I needed people who hurt me. I had hung in there because I thought I could help. I ignored the signs.

I'm trying to really take a step back and examine things now a days. Make thought out decisions. And make those decisions for mainly myself. I have been doing some self-rediscovery and it's pretty nice.

I want to thank a particular girl who has always been there for me. It's seems almost impossible that she had enough patience to deal with me. Thank you SO much. I love you and hope you are always in my life. You know that I will always be there for you and think nothing is ridiculous.

I also want to thank a certain boy who helped pull me out of the deep. He has been so understanding. He lets me cry on his shoulder and calls me beautiful afterwards. I owe him so much and he wont let me pay him back. I'm glad I met him at just the right time.

I have so many things to distract me now. New classes, new games, new people, new stories. I need to get back to old things, though. I miss God.

Thank you if you read this. Sort of personal, but I needed it.

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